untold

and it goes.. "sy da byk sbr k."


it's loud and clear!
have faith,mary..insyaAllah~~

my eid with you

I feel you in the morning

When at first I awake

Your thought is with me

With each decision I make

You'd been around like forever

Since the first breath I took

Now I have to go on alone

But for love, I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed

In our short time together

Will last in my heart 

Forever and ever

ilysmb!

eid 1432H

 eid ul-fitr 1432H

thanks friends!!!!!

sampai ketemu lagi tahun hadapan...

E-day ^_^

..alhamdulillah, ya Allah..

terima kasih kepada semua keluarga, saudara-mara & rakan taulan..

may our engagement will be blessed..

Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami lisan yang lembut basah mengingati dan menyebut namaMu,

hati yang penuh segar mensyukuri nikmatMu,

serta badan yang ringan menyempurnakan ketaatan kepada perintahMu.

Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami iman yang sempurna,

hati yang khusyuk, ilmu yang berguna, keyakinan yang benar-benar mantap.

Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami din cara hidup yang jitu dan unggul, selamat dari segala marabahaya dan petaka. Kami memohon Ya Allah kecukupan yang tidak sampai kami terpaksa meminta jasa orang lain.

Berikanlah kami Ya Allah iman yang sebenarnya sehingga kami tidak lagi gentar atau mengharap orang lain selain Engkau.

Kembangkanlah lembayung rahmatMu kepada kami,keluarga dan anak-anak kami serta sesiapa saja yang bersama-sama kami.

Jangan Ya Allah, Engkau biarkan nasib kami ditentukan oleh kami sendiri, walaupun kadar sekelip mata atau kadar masa yang lebih pendek dari itu.

Wahai Tuhan yang paling mudah dan cepat memperkenankan permintaan.Perkenankanlah.

Amin~~

..mendung kelabu...

april...things do not really work as what i planned for 2011..

so, many things freaked me out..

one of them..aku mendapat arahan pertukaran sekolah kerana sebuah percaturan konspirasi..

sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Mendengar..

aku berharap DIA mendengar rintihan aku..

kuatkan semangatku ya Allah..ALLAHUAKBAR!!

+_+ aku dah penat~

kadang-kadang aku terfikir;

knape manusia selalu tak puas hati sesama manusia??

kenapa tak boleh tengok orang lain senang??

kenapa nak kene hasad dengki dan busuk hati meracun fikiran orang lain supaya benci??

kenapa nak kene sibuk jaga tepi kain orang??

hari yang aku lalui sekarang penuh dengan duka dan luka.

tak ada satu hari pun yang menyenangkan.. hati ini macam dah tak boleh berada di situ tapi tiada pilihan melainkan aku terpaksa terus meneruskan khidmat mendidik di sana. kadang-kadang aku rasa macam nk give up, just buat kerja ala kadar je..tapi itu bukan aku. aku tak boleh buat macam tu sebab aku kesiankan budak2.

setiap hari memandu pulang dari kerja dengan satu stigma yang memang dh lekat kat kepala aku skrg, "kerja macam nak mati pun, bukan dapat ape? kene umpat keji adalah".

Ya Allah, engkau permudahkanlah proses perpindahan hambaMU ini ke sekolah lain dengan segera. Amin~~

..ALONE..

"language has created the word loneliness to express the pain of being alone.."

(Paul Tillich)

i am 26 years old this year, yet i'm still alone sitting at the dining table and at sofa watching television.

"people are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges"

(Joseph F.Newton)

i did not building any walls instead i am counting every second of the clock tickings to get rid of being alone.

actually, it has been awhile that i felt something is missing or not complete in me. it's like i lost a piece of jigsaw puzzle and i badly need it to make the puzzle perfect. hope that Allah will get me through this..ameen~~

time's up!!!

time waits for no man

plan your work and work your plan well

today is the second day of schooling yet i already suffocated. time is running very fast. rse mcm bru je punch card at 7.30 in the morning, then the next glanced at the watch it's already 4 o'clock.. oh my!!! tetibe je aku rse 24hours become 24minutes..waaa!!!!!! byk keje dh trtangguh ni..hadoiiiii!!!!!! suddenly, while writing this entry, aku teringat Badrul Aswadi's facebook wallpost, "jangan malas, bukan suruh jadi rajin tp jangan jadi malas." somehow, he was totally right, i have to be double triple JGN MALAS!!! for this year..no procrastination will be allowed( insyaAllah)if not, i'll be dead with the bunch and bundle of files, reports, and others!!! doaku di tahun baru, semoga tidak malas. ameen~~

"time's up!!!

it's already 4, go home and relax.."

2011

on 2nd of January 2011..i got my aims for this year. these are my most important long-term target for 2011;

my first wish is:

my mobile phone is not in good condition anymore (so sorry to inche b).. therefore, following the technology plus i'll have a little extra money soon i decided to buy this Apple iPhone 4..

iPhone4

Apple Earphones with Remote and Mic

Dock Connector to USB Cable

USB Power Adapter

Documentation

iPhone 4 Technical Specifications; http://www.digitaltrends.com/mobile/apple-iphone-4/2/

my second wish for 2011 is:

I would like to have my own Canon EOS 500D. No concrete reason for this gadget yet i never own any of camera before. Thus, I choose to own this real cool camera for me. I did my reading on this gadget, its kind of cool compared to other few SLRs. It's in the middle of 450D and 550D. I'm a girl in the middle of my siblings so, I choose 500D. It's quite expensive tho. However, I'll try my best to get the chance to hold it with my both hands. It's part of my dreams and I'm going to achieve it for my satisfaction. May Allah gives me the chance, ameen~~

Canon EOS 500D Specifications; http://www.canon.com.my/compare/product/?cat=1&lang=EN&p1=999&p2=1045