falling so hard..=(

dear blog (a.k.a "public" diary)

i'm so sad...

things dont really work between us..

two times in a week..

its bloody hell so bad for me..

i'm falling so hard..

i hate to feel this kind of feeling..

i'm really mad but at the same time i'm lost..

i hurt someone and i'm hurt also..

what the hell is this???

**V*

i dont ever think that it would make me hurt this much..

i thought it is a wonderful feeling..

only people who go through it can describe it..

but...i just realized it does not breeze at all time..

there's once it'll bring u down to earth..

and now it was my time to fall down to earth..

and the pain i bet u dont wanna know..

it broke into pieces..till nothing left to feel the pain..

what should i do???

what should i do??

i guess silence might be the key..

remain silence is better than being too vocal..

i might say something crap..

so, silence is the best way..

like someone has told me.."there are certain things words cant tell, we have to understand ourselves"..

"dear GOD The Almighty,

show me the right path that i should take..

if this is the best for me, give courage to endure it all..

i pray for your help.."